I am more than thankful for what I have now in my life.
Friends, family…
I know I whine all the time about how I feel like I have no friends, or nobody to keep me company. Well here’s the fact; I actually do. I do have a lot of people care for me, whenever something goes wrong and they notice it, they would ask me right away if I was okay. And I’m thankful for that.
Sometimes, when it gets too much, I ask if God was really up there, knowing that I’m in so much pain. I question His existence. And then I pray. And I get tougher. And I’m thankful for that.
I was never happy of myself, be it physical or non-physical. I’m always sorry for everything, even if maybe I did nothing wrong. I cry a lot. I laugh a lot more. But knowing that I still can consciously feel emotions, and knowing that I can feel happiness and joy if I want to, I’m thankful for that.
And today, I realize that I don’t have to rely my happiness on someone or something. It all comes from myself. My heart. My mind.
Being surrounded by so many amazing people is a great feeling indeed, but wouldn’t it be incredible if you can focus more on yourself and your well-being?
Lastly,
I’m thankful that I can experience so many things in life that can make me realize things I didn’t know I could think of. I’m thankful for him, I’m thankful for all the pain, I’m thankful for all the bitterness I have tasted.
I’m thankful for myself.